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I worked out that i post on average about every six days.� Iapos;m just so busy at the moment, but i refuse to let this journal die again.� The entries usually peter off after three or four.
I finally got my personal statement done, and when i get my UCAS application in that should give me a lot more time.� I only have one university left to visit, which is Portsmouth.� Iapos;ve been to open days at a different Uni every saturday this month.� Itapos;s meant waking up at five and cleaning my teeth and throwing on whatever clothes i can find, making a load of toast which we take with us and driving for up to four straight hours to manchester or plymouth or wherever.� Sorry, iapos;m not 100 sure that last sentence made sense.� I only seem to bother to write late in the evening when my syntax goes to hell.� I think iapos;ve said that before - who knows, memoryapos;s gone too.

I have six prospective Unis but i can only apply to five.� I need to apply to either plymouth or portsmouth, maybe both, because theyapos;re the lowest level ones in case i donapos;t do as well in my exams as i hope i will.� On the other end of the scale, thereapos;s Manchester, which to get in you need straight AAA and maybe a blood sacrifice.
Iapos;m definitely applying to plymouth, because the accommodation and college are.....well, they were alright, i suppose.� I liked the law course.� I feel bad, because since it only wants >300 UCAS points i was sitting there at the beginning feeling a little superior to everyone else.� By about halfway through that had totally disappeared, but i still feel a little like if i went there i wouldnapos;t be pushing myself as hard as i could.� Saying that does feel like iapos;ve internalised all that shite from my personal statement about how i want a course that will apos;challenge meapos; and apos;let me work to my full potentialapos; etc etc....
Manchester i have seen, and we didnapos;t like it.� The law course looked amazing, itapos;s got possibly the best reputation for Law [barring Oxbridge], but we hated the uni itself and they didnapos;t give us the chance to look around the accommodation, so they lose major brownie points there.
Now Portsmouth i havenapos;t seen yet, but i need to get my application in before we visit it next week.� Everyone thatapos;s been there has said they didnapos;t like it.� Itapos;s not a campus uni, which are the ones i like the most, and again itapos;s only a BBB/BBC level uni.
The problem:� I canapos;t decide between manchester and portsmouth.� I definately donapos;t like manchester, probably wonapos;t like portsmouth.� Donapos;t really want to go to either.� Do i push myself and apply to manchester?� But then they probably wonapos;t accept me so itapos;s a waste of an application, and if they did iapos;d feel like i was throwing away an opportunity if i rejected it.� I only really want to test myself to see if theyapos;d give me an offer.� And if plymouth didnapos;t offer me a place, iapos;d need portsmouth there as a backup.

I suppose iapos;m asking myself something i already know the answer to; iapos;ll apply to portsmouth.� Itapos;s just a big apos;What If?apos; now, and iapos;ll never find out if theyapos;d think i was good enough to study at one of the best universities in Britain.� Max was offered a place, which raised more questions.� They thought he was good enough, so suddenly it made it that bit more achievable.


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